Burnout is a feeling that’s familiar to all of us, neurodivergent or otherwise. Many of us will have felt like we have too much on our plate from time to time and work demands can often be the trigger for this feeling that there is more going on than you feel you can handle. When you are neurodivergent, however, this can be an especially intense experience as on top of all the sources of prolonged stress that may lead a neurotypical person towards burnout, we neurodivergent people are in what often feels like a permanent state of exhaustion from existing in a world that wasn’t made with our way of thinking in mind.
Unfortunately, many autistic people feel like they must “mask” or suppress their autistic traits at work, either due to stigma or negative past experiences. Essentially, you’re bringing someone that isn’t really “you”, but a version of you that you believe to be most acceptable or least “burdensome” to your colleagues, into work with you each day and putting on an Oscar-winning performance as someone who only bears the vaguest of resemblances to your authentic self. I’ve been lucky enough to have always worked for employers whom I generally felt comfortable disclosing my autistic identity to, and yet even with this acceptance amongst my colleagues, I still struggle not to mask as it’s something I learned to do by default over the years and even though it’s unbelievably, excruciatingly exhausting, it’s not something that can be unlearned overnight. For someone who doesn’t have the level of support or positive reception I received in both past and current roles, you can imagine how even that in itself could lead to a state of all-encompassing autistic burnout. Now add an overwhelming workload, the daily navigation of complex social dynamics at work that autistic people like myself can often find challenging, and all the demands of our lives outside of work, and a certain brand of chaos ensues at the centre of which you stand in a state of bewildered paralysis. Anyone who has been through autistic burnout will know this feeling all too well.
Speaking from my own experience, I can tell when I am on the path towards burnout when I start to feel “stuck” on a daily basis – that is, feeling so overwhelmed at the sheer volume of both small and larger tasks on my desk that I’m frozen into place, unable to fathom where to even begin through the foggy veil of sheer exhaustion. I struggle with executive dysfunction (difficulties planning, staying organised and switching between tasks) even at the best of times, but when I’m headed towards burnout it becomes all-encompassing to the point where even stringing a coherent thought or a sentence together feels like an uphill battle, never mind actioning the many demands and conflicting priorities sitting with me. The more I have to do, the less I get done as my mind struggles to prioritise which task should receive what miniscule sliver of energy remains left to me. My sensory triggers – loud noises, bright lights, the smells of people’s lunches – become more potent to me and make me more irritable. Essentially, everything – work, the world around me, everything – becomes “too much” and more intense than I can bear for very long.
I’ve often felt quite guilty about feeling autistic burnout as people around me seem to be coping just fine with a much larger workload than mine and sometimes I feel like I come across as lazy, incompetent or disorganised by burning out so “easily”. But trust me, those people are probably feeling burnout too and it doesn’t matter what your workload is like by comparison: you don’t need to justify your burnout to anyone.
With that said, I’ve become much better at recognising when I’m in a state of autistic burnout over the years and have accumulated some strategies to both prevent and manage autistic burnout. Hopefully some of these may be helpful for you too!
By using some of the above strategies, hopefully this autistic burnout will become a far less frequent occurrence. Please do get in touch with us on LinkedIn or via email at inquiries@sourceabled.co.uk if you have any tips of your own you’d like to share!